I have so many friends who are having problems with child bearing, child rearing, and parenting right now it blows my mind. I have friends who badly want to be parents with no kids. I have friends who seem to be able to have kids but have horrible pregnancies and don't have as many children as they would like (I guess I could add myself to that category.) I have friends who have TOO MANY kids. I have a friend who cried to me today about finding out she was pregnant with her third girl...she was hoping for a boy as this was to be her last pregnancy. I have a friend who was knocked up and who will probably end up on welfare because she can't afford to raise a child (adoption..hello?!) And of course, I have friends who have children with disabilities and health issues...those are the most heartbreaking.

 

Why is the process of bringing these little souls down to this earth so dang hard and so complicated? (question for the day I get to heaven I guess...) 

 

The kid thing has got to be the single thing in life that brings the most joy and the most pain at the same time. Every friend I have who is dealing with these types of trials suffers greatly, and it's very sad. It doesn't really help to hear that others are going through it as well (and there are plenty of others) because it's just not something that you want to have happen to you. I think as kids, especially as girls...we assume that someday we'll just have the exact children we want, and that will be that and we hold on to that until the day we actually start having them. And it's crazy for us when things don't turn out the way we had planned---which is funny because when it comes to having children you pretty much have zero control over what your gonna get.

 

I feel very lucky to have my little boy, and I know I am lucky.